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Thursday, February 3, 2011

2 Biscuits and Water

Square in shape with corners slit and forming curves which look smooth. Sharp edges willingly etched out symbolizing the generosity by nature/philanthropic by culture/responsible by corporate jargons; inducing and practicing self-flagellation. Golden layered fighting the chemical course desperate to make it yellow and shabby. A few years older than me (23 running (brisk walking rather)) and hence the justified omniscient looks casted down upon me. An importance gathered due to impeccable visibility at a location where it gets noticed without going through the turmoil of search. Lethargy and rest inevitable denied as it threatens its core competency. Seemed like an attention seeker in case of ignorance of more than 15mins. Loud and clear while it did so as if to say – “ Out of sight ain’t out of mind anymore!” followed by chuckles.






Square shaped with smooth edges due to fine finesse. Golden in color slowly fading off as it has been static in location but dynamic in action since years longer than I’ve lived. Located in the entrance hall and hence very noticeable. Have to feed in batteries to it as it is useless if it’s not working coz that’s its JOB!! Every 15mins a tune is heard, different each time in an hour. You can hear it distinctly even if you are in some other room. Yes, the description is a dedication to the ANNOYING ( Di would agree) WALL CLOCK hung at my home . So why the descriptive need about the forest,the trees,the bark,the wood,the ovals indicating the age,the molecules,the atoms,the nucleus? The metamorphosis shall be noticed as you read further. More readable henceforth? Without a doubt. An initiation to be less enigmatic? A note lower than the high pitch, toning down I would say. More footfall? Wouldn’t mind that. More commercial? Rational and relatable I shall say. Does Colin Firth deserve an Oscar for The King’s Speech? You bet he does.

Imagine its 11pm and you have to write a paper at 10am for which you would be forced to leave your place by 9am ( anticipating traffic jams, breaking down of your vehicle,too many buffaloes on a morning walk, drunken men dizzy and finding their way back home on the street,small kids slowing down your speed, women crossing the street looking at one side in a two way street etc.) . If you are the grasshopper from the Aesop’s fable, now (11pm) is the peak time you regret fooling around in the summer. Sleeping is not really on your mind because THERE IS A TASK TO BE DONE – more of desperate attempts to consume few words to scribble on the paper. As you ‘flip’ through the abridged Bibles of your subjects, some people make sure the mosquito net is mounted on the top of your bed giving you no reasons to fall sick and skip the exam. Then comes the statement that your frame of mind does not allow. A statement which might have an intent to calm but has the content which freaks the daylights out of you. It asks you to fall asleep, get early the next day and REVISE what you have studied /prepared all this while. REVISE?? What is that? Revise the minority while the majority lies unattended? Revise should be included under the heading of torture words, just like words ‘nice’, ‘whatever’,’shopping’,’thingy’, ‘anyway’ et cetera. You calm your nerves and explain how that is the last thing that crossed your mind and you needed to STUDY A LOT till the morning. You cannot risk failure by getting sleepy like the Rabbit in the race! The noticeable rise in pride issues under the pretext to merely be mediocre for survival. Focused ambition , ehh? Not really. Rather survival instincts. An opera ends when the fat lady wishes it to. A boxing match ends at the cease of the bell. A dot has the power to restrict a chain of words. Just like that what worsens the situation are the immortal words that flies like a butterfly but stings like a bee. It makes you feel like a crazy Englishman petting his/her dog in Korea where dogs are eating. It questions your beliefs, your (mis)doings, your pathetic time management, you inability to prioritize, lacking of planning, procrastination with stiches in time.



Situational Warrior ( mental agility at the vertex but still broad as the base in terms of action) : “ Have to study. Blah blah. What if cannot do well tomorrow. Blah Blah. “ Trust me you do not wish this to be answered. It was a rhetorical Q but now the arrow has left the bow. Carrots replaced by sticks.The fish is trapped in the net.

Omniscient Ruler : “ So what if you cannot ( not even don’t stressing on the carelessness you have shown) perform well tomorrow? After all, Jo karega woh bharega!!”

As you sow , so shall you reap. The one who has worked on the field will eventually fill up the bags after the yield. Even if I try to translate Hindi – English,the impact and shudder it causes will be unmatched,unparralled and not exact. The knocking on Hope’s door now have become thuds with SOS signals for rescue. Hard hitting and whisks the wind off your face. The most important thing that this line does to you is it berefts you of reasons for your non-performance. Makes you blame no one but yourself. Teaches you go be responsible only if you want to learn your lessons. Otherwise, those are just mean words to say to a poor soul. Add to that the ding-dongs of the dreadful wall clock indicating how short you are of time.

Dabs of boosting self-confidence during the evening in the form of bread pizzas, bit of cuddling, G0- Tiger…s….helps but the last grasps of oxygen as you choke can be the deciding factor.The fur-feet contact under the table was like rubbing against a soft carpet black in color ,lots of fur, white in the chest. You are still thoroughly missed every time my chappels lose their base.

The more YIN approach would be 2 biscuits and water.So is the 4 Rasgulla’s sans sugar syrup is non-fattening which you fall for no matter what age has done to you. Yes, simple, sweet, manageable and re-assuring devoid of the T.word ‘ Revise’. A doable though. Get up early in the morning, brush ,have 2 biscuits and a glass of water and then study . Basically get your thoughts in order considering you are in bad shape, get some mind rest, of course you have studied enough to scrap through, don’t get the panic button yet, feed your hungry stomach, jot down what you feel is important and get back to work. Can’t really escape the work by worry can you? What about the faith you should have in yourself ? Will not question your ability at all albeit serious doubts still exist during household chores and in the kitchen.



At 4am today morning , I woke up only to end up writing this piece. Long sabbatical it has been for me from this blog. An attempt to make it personalized and more in the form of direct speech unlike the earlier posts which acted like sleeping pills , patience test, bouncers in cricket, hons in English fainting of horror due to interpretations by an engineer, reading comprehension practice for competitive exams, tool for marks for the new media subject etc. The attempt wasn’t strategic obviously. It is just the reflection of what is incident on the surface area.

Had 2 biscuits and water before I started writing. No exam today though.

P.S : The Wall clock functions but is impaired in sound. Yang of the family decided to do so.